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24 March

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19 February

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#Criminal Minds #Paget Brewster #emily prentiss #sad #crying #i love you #i miss you #red #green

I have been sitting here for some time, trying to put into words what Paget means to me and to Criminal Minds as a whole, but the thing is, there are no words that can completely sum her up. She is an intelligent, charismatic, witty, beautiful woman and just seeing her on screen never fails to make me smile. And although I have never had the honor of meeting Paget, she seems to me like the kind of person that you would want to be around. Like the kind of person that would go out of their way just to say hello. Just from comments she has wrote on Twitter, it’s clear that she is the kind of person that can make you smile through even the darkest of times, and I know for me, she has.

Then there is Paget’s portrayal of Emily Prentiss on Criminal Minds. I can’t even begin to tell you the type of confidence boost it gives me to see such a strong woman doing the job that is my goal. She plays the role of Emily Prentiss with such poise and grace, and while she may be the tough chick on the show, you just have to watch “Bloodline” or “Solitary Man” to see that she has an empathy with the victims that one of the male team members just couldn’t have.

Criminal Minds without Paget – or AJ in every episode, will not be Criminal Minds. They are both integral roles to the success of the show. They bring some light to the dark, and fans look forward to the interaction between all three of the female leads. I hope that we will have many more of those moments to look forward too, from the ladies that we love.

I don’t know how the writers intend to let Prentiss go but I want it to be realistic and amazingly good. I have heard that the story-lines all really come together for the season finale and it’s supposed to be happy in contrast to the usual gloom, doom, and danger. I don’t know what this pertains for Prentiss but I am excited to see how it plays out.

No I am not, by any means, ready to say goodbye to Prentiss or Paget. I’m in the grieving process for sure. Prentiss was a part of me in many ways and I loved her and Paget too. I do not want to say goodbye, I’m not ready to. We just got her back and we have to say goodbye all over again. It sucks and my heart breaks. I cried over this for a long time and I am still crying. I am, however, so happy for Paget. She’s doing what she needs to do for herself, as she should. So many people don’t follow their gut instinct when they should and Paget is being one of the few to actually listen to and think for her self. I admire her for that. I will support her in anything and everything she does.

I’m crying right now. She was the only reason I ever started watching the show.

Watching CM and just knowing the time is coming when I’ll have to lose Emily again. Although I knew subconsciously that all things must come to an end, and one day Paget Brewster would have to leave CM and Emily Prentiss, I never comprehended it to happen so soon. And, the reality is, I’m actually crushed, shattered and heartbroken.

Emily Prentiss is the reason I love Criminal Minds so much. It’s hard to explain why: I’m always drawn to the strong female characters and Prentiss was all that and so much more. Clever, sassy, funny, stubborn, gorgeous and generally amazing: she was a role model. I cried my eyes red during “Lauren”, but was ecstatic when I heard she would be back for season 7.

But this time when Paget Brewster leaves, it will be permanent. She won’t be coming back. That’s why I am actually crying over this. I love the show so much that Emily Prentiss has a part of my heart. The team revolves around her and she is just SO INCREDIBLE and Paget Brewster plays her so phenomenally.

Don’t get me wrong, I totally respect Paget’s decision and I’m really glad she chose to move on instead of getting fired, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. She’s an incredible actress and really funny, so I know this won’t be the end of her. BUT IT STILL HURTS.

Knowing that every new episode I watch means one less of Paget Brewster just might kill me. As if I’m not dead already. I just want to listen to sad songs and track the Paget Brewster tag like there’s no tomorrow (which there isn’t).

Someone, anyone, tell me how to move forward in my life.

CBS better make up a really good plot line for why she’s leaving. ‘Getting a transfer’ won’t fly with me.

I know this will seem irrational to everyone, being so emotional over a fictional character and actress, but I love her like she’s my own, like I actually know who she is. I am actually devastated: I have an emotional attachment to both Emily and Paget.

And, for anyone that doesn’t watch Criminal Minds, I apologize for the upcoming onslaught of Criminal Minds posts. EVERYTHING IS JUST SO RELEVANT.

I know this will take some time for me to adjust.

It has been an emotional day, again.

16 February

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#Criminal Minds #crime shows #Paget Brewster #emily prentiss #sad #crying #cbs #I love you #i miss you #blog #rant #upset #angry #death #lauren reynolds

I am devastated over Paget leaving.

If you know me, you know I am painfully obsessed with Prentiss/Paget. I just can’t deal right now. I am going to buy every season of CM on Amazon and watch them over and over until I eat myself to death on ice cream. That’s how depressed I am.

My friends will think I’m an idiot for being so depressed over a TV show. They don’t understand though. I had TV when I didn’t have them. I found comfort (and knowledge) in Criminal Minds [and a few other shows]. They will never see TV the way I do. Criminal Minds is part of my family. I quote them and laugh about them and I watch their best episodes when I’m down. When I’m sad I watch their bloopers…. I just can’t survive right now. I am not myself. I am worn out. And I am going to bed.